Pretty sure I’ve used that title before. Probably back in 2017 since I haven’t been on here since Jan. 1 of 2018 and now it’s mid-November.
Evidently I’m good at failing.
If I was a character in a novel, that would be my lie. That I fail at everything I do. Then I would have a goal, like, oh, I don’t know, maybe to write a book.
Then I would have to fight through the conflicts of having to go to work and using all my creative energy and willpower doing things other people push at me and computers breaking and my family wanting actual food.
But my motivation would remind me why I need to write this book.
And then finally, I would learn that I am not really a failure – look at all the cool things I did accomplish.
And then I would be able to finish the book.
The spammers think my site has the potential to become very popular. And I seem to have a bunch of new Russian friends.
The “Which Career Is Right For You?” test thinks I have the potential to become a great Quality Assurance professional.
My mom used to tell me to not waste my potential.
Well, sorry, mom. Based on the amount of time since my last post, I think I failed you.
It’s November and I am already thinking about my 2018 resolutions. And guess what one of them is?
Yep. More engagement – with people and with potential readers (assuming I ever finish the book! – but that’s a topic for another post).
So, expect to see me here more. Not that anyone’s looking. Except the spammers and the Russians. Yeehaw!
So here’s the thing.
I started this blog with the intention of using it to force myself to write. To hold myself accountable so that I would finish the book (and then write the next one!).
But it hasn’t really worked out that way.
I haven’t been using it as a motivator. I have actually been ignoring it completely. And the book along with it.
I have a great story to tell. But now this blog makes it obvious how long it’s taken me and how hard it is and how easily I let other things take precedence. It makes it obvious that I’m not a Type A who gets it all done.
I have been thinking I need to delete all the posts on the blog and move on. I’m still working on the book. Occasionally. This weekend I made some progress on those notes from the coach I hired 9 months ago. Nine months – just like that (snap your fingers for me, will you?). Poof!
However, I just went back and re-read all the posts, and for a while it was motivating, and I was making progress. I made a lot of progress and I got farther in the book than I would have had I not started this process.
So, for now, I am keeping the blog up. I may even start posting more regularly and get that motivation thing going again (it helps that the day job has slowed down a bit).
If nothing else I can practice my Russian by reading through the comments left by all the spammers who think I have a great site and want to sell me a variety of pharmaceuticals or porn. Yay.
It’s been over 15 months since my last post.
The good news:
Still have that day job
Still have that book
The bad news:
Still busy at work
Still haven’t finished that book
In other news, I did kind of start another book. It’s in a different
genre and I’m excited about it, but I’m not really working on that
I have to get this crazy day job schedule under control. I actually made it a work goal this year.
In other, other news, I am finally watching Breaking Bad.
I know, right?
So behind the times in so many ways.
I got a new day job.
The good news is it keeps me busy.
The bad news is it keeps me busy.
But I am slowly making progress on the edits from the coach I hired. Key word: slowly
But even slow progress is better than none. So I’ll keep trying to fit in time to write – scratch that.
I will make time to write (revise) and I will finish this book.
Just don’t hold your breath. I’m not ready for that level of responsibility yet.
Yes, it’s been a while. I could tell you some terrific story about how I’ve been busy saving children in Uganda, or found out I was the switched-at-birth daughter of the rulers of a foreign land, or how I thwarted a terrorist attack in Houston, but those are actually other books I’ve been reading instead of blogging.
I have been writing, though! But I’m still not finished with the book.
I know, I know. I said I was going to be finished by now. But I’m trying to make this the best book it can be before it goes out into the world. Each read-through shows me something else that needs to be improved.
This is still a learning book. I know that. It may never be published, but, by golly, when it goes out to be judged, I will be proud of it.
I’m going to get back to blogging regularly, too. Probably not every day, but at least once a week. I am learning things in this process and want to share them.
Even if no one but the spammers are reading it. 🙂
I spent a long, fabulous day plotting and planning and revising. First, I mapped out the whole book on a storyboard, then spent some time planning how to fix the known issues. After that I plugged the fixes into the storyboard and even wrote a new scene.
The plan for what to do next is sitting on bright sticky notes on my storyboard, but the hard part is still doing it. It took me hours to write the new scene, but I kept at it and got it finished. After a few days I’ll go back and clean it up some. I know my writing process well enough now to know the new scene has issues.
Speaking of my process, it’s becoming more clear to me that I need to plot. In enough detail that I know where to go, but not so much that I can’t deal with new ideas that pop up while writing. It’s a fine line to walk, but it seems to work better for me than just pulling threads and seeing where they go.
I guess I’ll find out for sure when I start working on the next book.
Thought I’d add a quick update about where I am. My last goal was to finish the book and query by 1/20. I did query, but I didn’t quite finish. In my final read-through, I found some things that made me want to go back and look at the story arc again. There are still things that are missing. There are parts that read flat.
Basically the book still needs work.
And these aren’t little things like “I need better word choices”, but bigger things like “why does she do that?” Story questions that still need to be answered. Or asked.
This is that part of writing a book that I still need to learn.
I have a good chunk of time set aside this weekend to work and I hope when I come out the other side I have a plan and a new deadline.
Or better yet, that I made progress and am closer to writing “THE END”.
Lots of ideas for the next book in this series and another unrelated one have been popping into my head lately. It’s way past time to wrap this one up and move on to the new, shiny stories.
Okay, here we are, the day before my (second) self-imposed deadline, and I’m sitting pretty – pretty close to finishing! I worked hard to wrap up some stuff this morning, then knocked out some small stuff this afternoon like making sure chapters were about even and numbered correctly, fixed the places I had marked with questions, and re-worked some rough spots.
Tomorrow I need to finish a scene and submit the query and then I’m DONE!!!
Well, and send it to a couple of beta readers and work in their feedback, but I’ll be done enough to start working on the next one.
Have I mentioned this book has been my WIP for the past seven years?
I probably shouldn’t mention it, but it’s the truth.
Can I just say I will never work on a book this long again?
Can you please hold me to it? 🙂
Dang, now that Britney Spears song is running through my head.
So, the last time I posted was Wednesday. It’s Sunday now. I did write Thursday and Friday, but didn’t get around to posting here.
I’m coming up on my second self-induced deadline (Tuesday) and have a lot to do to finish, but I’m SO MUCH CLOSER than I’ve ever been before!
Today I don’t have a lot of time for writing until later this evening, so hopefully my brain cells will kick in then. Otherwise, I’ll be up early tomorrow and working hard. I have the day off work so I’ll be pushing to finish this thing!
For now, getting to work in the little bit of time I have this morning…