Pretty sure I’ve used that title before.   Probably back in 2017 since I haven’t been on here since Jan. 1 of 2018 and now it’s mid-November.

November, people!

Evidently I’m good at failing.

If I was a character in a novel, that would be my lie.  That I fail at everything I do. Then I would have a goal, like, oh, I don’t know, maybe to write a book.

Then I would have to fight through the conflicts of having to go to work and using all my creative energy and willpower doing things other people push at me and computers breaking and my family wanting actual food.

But my motivation would remind me why I need to write this book.

And then finally, I would learn that I am not really a failure – look at all the cool things I did accomplish.

And then I would be able to finish the book.

The End.


Step 1.  Set a goal

I’m going to start the year working on my goal for Book 2.  My goal for the year is to submit it get a contract (thinking BIG!).

Btw, Book 2 is not related to Book 1.  Just so you know.  🙂

Step 2.  Make a plan

To get a contract I need to first write the book.  To write the book I need to know the story I want to tell.  I have already worked through a lot of the figuring-out-the-story part, but to actually tell the story I need to sit my butt in the chair and write.

So my plan is to sit my butt in the chair to write at least 4 times a week.  With extended time on Saturdays.

Step 3. Start

I have a set a goal tracker to track 4 times per week.  Because I know myself, and recognize that I could easily use this blog to distract myself from actual writing time, I will update progress here weekly.  I’m thinking Sunday evenings (even though it’s Monday evening now – but I’m still on holiday time!).

See you in a week!

Looking Ahead to 2018

2018 starts tomorrow.

That blows my mind. Where does the time go?

Family, chores, work, church, sleep, writing – although if I wrote than in order of actual time used it would be:  Work, sleep, chores, church, family, writing.

Which is kinda sad.

I heard recently that your priorities are where you spend you time.  So, if I intend to be a writer, I seriously need to re-prioritize my life.  Also, I should add commuting in here, but my commuting time is actually useful as I listen to audio-books or podcasts, or sometimes just jam to uplifting music that speaks to my soul.

For 2018, my goals are:

  1. Finish The Book (the one that has taken a lot of this blog’s time)
  2. Finish the second book.

That’s it.  Or at least all I’m tracking here.  But I need to break it down into steps that will help me achieve them.   And make sure my priorities are in line.

Ready, set, go!

Struggling, but I see a light

Maybe I should change my tag line from “Author looking for her place between romance and suspense” to “Woman looking for her place between life and writing”.

I have been struggling (for years, actually) to make time to write, or more accurately, revise this book.  Revising seems to take a lot more energy, focus and time than the original writing.

To tell the truth, I’m terrified to start a new book.  Maybe that’s why finishing this one is taking so dang long.  I’m scared of learning that I really don’t know what I’m doing, even though I claim that I’m learning so much.  Learning is failing, though.  I know this.

But recently I discovered Lisa Cron and her books, Wired for Story and Story Genius.


She spoke to my writing soul and it made sense and it stuck and it got me un-stuck!  I have made more progress in the past few weeks than I have in the past few years.  Glory Hallelujah!



The spammers think my site has the potential to become very popular.   And I seem to have a bunch of new Russian friends.

The “Which Career Is Right For You?” test thinks I have the potential to become a great Quality Assurance professional.

My mom used to tell me to not waste my potential.

Well, sorry, mom. Based on the amount of time since my last post, I think I failed you.


It’s November and I am already thinking about my 2018 resolutions.  And guess what one of them is?

Yep.  More engagement – with people and with potential readers (assuming I ever finish the book! – but that’s a topic for another post).

So, expect to see me here more.  Not that anyone’s looking.  Except the spammers and the Russians.  Yeehaw!


So here’s the thing.

I started this blog with the intention of using it to force myself to write.  To hold myself accountable so that I would finish the book (and then write the next one!).

But it hasn’t really worked out that way.

I haven’t been using it as a motivator.  I have actually been ignoring it completely.  And the book along with it.

I have a great story to tell.  But now this blog makes it obvious how long it’s taken me and how hard it is and how easily I let other things take precedence.  It makes it obvious that I’m not a Type A who gets it all done.

I have been thinking I need to delete all the posts on the blog and move on.  I’m still working on the book.  Occasionally.  This weekend I made some progress on those notes from the coach I hired 9 months ago.  Nine months – just like that (snap your fingers for me, will you?).  Poof!

However, I just went back and re-read all the posts, and for a while it was motivating, and I was making progress.  I made a lot of progress and I got farther in the book than I would have had I not started this process.

So, for now, I am keeping the blog up.  I may even start posting more regularly and get that motivation thing going again (it helps that the day job has slowed down a bit).

If nothing else I can practice my Russian by reading through the comments left by all the spammers who think I have a great site and want to sell me a variety of pharmaceuticals or porn.  Yay.

Don’t even know what to say….

It’s been over 15 months since my last post.

The good news:
Still have that day job
Still have that book

The bad news:
Still busy at work
Still haven’t finished that book

In other news, I did kind of start another book.  It’s in a different
genre and I’m excited about it, but I’m not really working on that
one, either.

I have to get this crazy day job schedule under control.   I actually made it a work goal this year.

In other, other news, I am finally watching Breaking Bad.

I know, right?
So behind the times in so many ways.

No, I didn’t fall off the face of the earth…

I got a new day job.

The good news is it keeps me busy.

The bad news is it keeps me busy.

But I am slowly making progress on the edits from the coach I hired.  Key word: slowly

But even slow progress is better than none.  So I’ll keep trying to fit in time to write – scratch that.

I will make time to write (revise) and I will finish this book.

Just don’t hold your breath.  I’m not ready for that level of responsibility yet.


Since I’ve been struggling with the ending of this book I have decided to hire a coach.

Could I do it on my own?  Maybe.  But I’ve been working on this book for so long , and each time I try to figure how to finish it I feel lost in the weeds.  There are issues with the story and I’m too close.

So, I’m going to a professional – someone who can read it and tell me how to fix it so I can finish it.

I’ll report back.  Wish me luck!

Clearly I’m having issues

Monthly.  Bi-monthly.


I had a great post planned for the week after that last post, but got hung up on how to spell (look, here I am again, in the middle of actually writing the post a month and a half later, and going to Google to find the lyrics again because I cant remember how they spelled it, only that I didn’t think it was right) “whoa.”

Know the song yet?

Hint: several of the sites spelled it “woo-o-o” instead of “whoa-whoa-whoa” – which is obviously ridiculous.  “Woo” is not “whoa”.  Personally, I think “whoa-oh-oh” covers it nicely, but I couldn’t find that on any of the sites with song lyrics.

Yes, my post was about feelings.  Whoa-oh-oh, feelings.

What a difference it makes when you ask (before writing, or during revising a scene), “what is the character feeling?”

Let your character’s emotions guide the action in the scene.

Try it and let me know how it works for you!

Meanwhile, sorry about getting that song stuck in your head.  🙂